I absolutely HATE that I am not good at what I am doing. I was not the best teacher, but I was really pretty good at teaching second grade. My kids made lots of progress. They were almost always on task. They listened to me. I really was confident in myself as a teacher. Well, not any more. I have no confidence in myself right now as a kindergarten teacher. And that, for me, is very hard. I am very critical of myself. Quite a perfectionist actually. And now that I am not good at something and it's something I can't just quit doing (like all sports) I don't like it! At all!
I realize it will get better. And I realize that with time that
But right now, I'm not liking myself. I'm not liking not being good at teaching my students. And it's getting to me.