(4th of July 2009)
Today was a hard day. I know it is supposed to be a day to celebrate the freedom of our country. But, how do you celebrate when your husband is currently deployed? I couldn't get past the men and women who have lost their lives fighting for freedom, for us and for others. I couldn't get past those who have, are or will risk their lives to fight for freedom, and experience things I can't even imagine. I couldn't get past those who have been injured while serving this country. I couldn't get past the families that remain at home, seperated from the one they love most. And more than anything, I couldn't get past the fact that Anthony was not here. I guess you could say I was bitter (even selfish) that I have to sacrifice my husband for four months. (I realize it's only 4 months, and I could be 18 months, or forever, but that doesn't make 4 months any easier.)
Then, late tonight I recieved a message on my Facebook wall. It said "Thanks to Anthony for the job he is doing and thanks to you for the sacrifices you have as well. I appreciate him!" My heart swelled with pride. I am proud of my Airman. I am proud of him for serving our country and for the sacrifices he is making. I am proud to be an Air Force wife.
(graduating tech school)
As I go to bed tonight, I am no longer bitter. I am proud.