We're not really sure how much longer until Anthony leaves for his deployment. All we have is a window. It could be 20 days from now, it could be a month. We don't know. He doesn't even have his orders. Ahh!!!
It just hit me though that it's coming up pretty soon. And the way things are flying by, I'm sure it will be here before I know it. Right now, I'm okay with it. Don't get me wrong, I'd much rather have him here with me, but I know what he signed up for and I know that by marrying him, I signed up for it too.
I've read about other wives going through various stages before their husband leaves and I've gone through my own stages too. For the past 3 or 4 weeks, I've been mean to him. I've had a lot of anger. I'm not sure it all had to do with him, I'm sure part of it had to do with my stomach issues. Regardless of why, I was mean. He asked me numerous times if I still liked him. Looking back on it, I feel bad for being so mean, and I've said my appologies.
That's slowly started to change into clingy. I want to spend every possible minute I can with him. I know I don't have much time until he leaves, so I'm charishing every second with him. Even if that means he's laying in bed playing on his laptop watching tv while I try to sleep. I wonder what I'll go through next.
What stages did you go through?
5 weeks ago